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I Kept Digging

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after the snowstorm drive early last Sunday morning, I kept wondering Why? (besides toughening me up to driving in said weather to make it to both my second semester in pottery and the first of the month Irish Session at the Port Tavern in Newburyport with Eamon Coyne).

in order to dig deeper (this was message from tarot readings after visiting the french bull dog I had already named “Phoebe” even though Tru , his other nickname I gave him as he had been previously named “Trooper” is a he) I had to go thru four other possible inquiries. In the way it occurred, I was offered a doodle dog, then turned away, I dug into the realization that yes, I would love another Boston Terrier after all. And also, I decided against getting a rescue dog.

Through a string of seemingly random movements, I think I may have ended up with the true dog. In the process, I descended into doubt for too long and then had to consciously release some kind of astral demonic sucker on thing that showed up in this latest painting. As per usual, once I spot a demon, I can release it by covering it over in white and silver watercolor, saying “I release you” and also clearing my energy, my doubt, sadness, futility, desperation, basically all the heavy overstayed emotions that shout “come eat my loosh!” This is an ongoing event that I see no end to in this body, on this planet. Whilst I am on this planet and dealing with my emotions, sometimes, I just hit overwhelm and lose my clear state of being. It is a common occurrence, dare I say, I fear.

To bring things to the present, after three Boston Terrier inquiries I learned a lot. Possibly one was a scam, and I know a month ago while looking for a BT, I was approached in messenger and it was a scam. Don’t forget the name “Phoebe” as my life happened.

Backstory: I had picked up an Icelandic Sheepdog and brought her home. I asked my son what to name her. He said “Frida.” Six months later the breeder said oh I thought you named her Frida because her mother’s name is Disa Frida.

The fourth Boston Terrier breeder I found on the AKC website (discovered Through one of my phone calls with a Vermont breeder). She had one female left. She is only fifteen miles from me and the mother of the litter is Phoebe.

Phoebe

in that exact spelling. Not Phebe.

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Art that nurtures connection.

Dig Deeper.

It was my Frenchie named Tru.

I thot it was a wombat in previous paintings and then the last two watercolors undeniably had French bull dogs.  Tru, my Frenchie found me.

tho, no. Dig deeper. Tru is not my dog.

I used to crave a French bull dog even amidst the love of my life Boston terrier, Rosie (1999-2010). And when she passed I gave up wishing for a Frenchie. I went a whole ‘nother direction with Frida (Icelandic sheepdog extrodinaire) and ZurE, the tiny “mini” of the litter.  She had been named Mini and prior all year before I had been naming many things, Mini. Even my new tractor and car.

I had also been painting small black dogs for ten years.  She came all black with a pig curly tail and a Boston terrier mixed in.

So, I revisited the idea of my very own Frenchie and drove in a snowstorm early this Sunday morning. He is a sweet dog. He also has a very large hematoma covering one ear. (cost 200-2000$). This would be on top of adoption fee which no one has told me, and I haven’t asked – somewhere between 565-765$ I am guessing.

so, ok. keep painting, keep dreaming, set up my squirrel feeding station, make needle felt balls for my cat, Cho.

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Dec 28th, 2025 – January 2026

I’ve begun another watercolor. It is mostly started with blob shapes, circles that I keep adding outer circles of colors, dots and lines. This is where I commune with the Divine thru the elementals. Faces, animals, beings…..show up here and there, sometimes much, much later near completion. The ones I keep are the benevolent ones. Some come in as interference, twisted, reversed and curious. I call this my catch and release program. The kind of entities and astral bits come from being at the supermarket, my dreamstate in the astral, family lineages, trackers, fAtalE intruders and more. If they are nearby they seem to find the painting irresistible and show up thru the painting.

this painting below is about teamwork – my tribe; the elementals mostly I work with while painting and the creatures that live close by (chicken – Hannah the second, two sets of crows born here, deer, turkeys, squirrels, my cat) as well my partner going on 27 years. Painting and also now pottery making using the images from watercolors is my greatest adventure and ongoing accomplishment. I am feeling the loss of my two dogs (frida, icelandic sheepdog and zurE, my bugg, boston terrier/pug) being by my side constantly.

I think i will continue to blog regularly as i let it lapse last year.

i did have to do some releasing from above painting. And when i had it in my corel painter digital program, a dog appeared on the bottom right. This occurred minutes before my adoption coordinator from Sweet Paws texted me with two photos. One a chichuahua name Tobi (my nickname, means “to be”) and the second photo a french bull dog!…. I asked her to put me on the list for both and now I wait to hear where I am on the list of other waiters. Did my painting this dog forecast my Frenchie coming to me. And now let me post work in progress, is this Tobi the chihuahua? Am i painting wishful thinking in terms of a dream map or is this a true symbol from the elementals? there are two distinct “dogs” unless this is my old greyhound (Hailey, rescued 1985 – 1995 i dont know how old she was when I got her, it was a private rescue). I am aware of my previous dogs helping me as ancestors to usher in the next dog tribe.

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dogless?

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The Big Dog painting

Duck duck goose. The games of cat and mouse.  Whilst incoming frequencies of the protectorate kind sweep up and down this planet, there are whispers and time weaves occurring.

In my life I grab the golden ring, call things as I see it, do a little dance.

Divine rise and reconnect, go deeply into the heart of effimah, stand in truth.

Perpetual grace, love, joy.

The stillpoint.

The eternal.