I am not breathing fully. I am getting used to the idea that my son is hopefully safely at a shelter, though I wouldn’t know for certain because he is not allowed to be in touch with me since he set my house in fire. His father is holidaying in Brazil for two months. I feel triggered every time I have to deal with my three lawyers (one to become executor of my brothers estate and two beloved Pittsburgh lawyers ongoing court dates to take back my inheritance my sisters felt were theirs because they were executors and said they could do whatever they wanted – ignore the wills of both parents of one fifth between five children. It is criminal what they did.)
I continue to paint and work on my new pots. I still teach music. I got a new puppy. God is still good. The positive context of the eternal is still real to me. MRWS, my relationship with Source is still my operatus.
And I am getting help and support. I am starting Cory Mascara’s two-month intensive program to sit and be with the feelings from now and way back in the past. There are daily meditations, three-hour meditations and seven-hour meditations. Plus, a support group on What’s app of people that have gone through this program.
Cory has a daily podcast. Today he said “what if everything that seems to be falling apart is actually falling in place?”
Singingland studios 